Hey, ya'll. It is 11:07pm and I have to get up mad early in the morning, but, I needed to write this before going to sleep. God is so amazing! Yes, I try to say that in every post, but, He really is. Let me tell you what happened. On Friday, I received an email from someone inviting me to come to a workshop for singer/songwriters for a HBO project that is called Bessie 81 tour. It's promoting the movie Bessie that has Queen Latifah in it. Anyway, I was so encouraged to be invited to the workshop, but, I thought about having to work during the time that the workshop was being held. So, I prayed and I asked my Father, that if it is His will for me to go, for Him to give me favor and show me this by allowing my supervisor to say that I could go. I sent an email to her on Sunday and she said that we would talk about it on Monday morning.
When I went into her office, she asked me what it was about. I told her that it was a workshop that would help me grow more in my craft as a singer/songwriter. She said that she just wanted more information about it and that I could go and if I thought that 12pm was a good time. (The workshop started at 1pm.) I said yes. I almost danced as I walked out of the door because I saw the favor of God on my life.
At the workshop, I had the chance to meet some amazing people. I met Stacey Barthe who is a major singer/songwriter and has worked with Rihanna and others. I didn't know who she was. I have never heard of her, but I was glad to be able to listen to her and her experience. Everything she shared was on point. I connected with her because, as a songwriter, my goal is to write my life, my emotions and feelings. She said something that was great. She said that writing about my emotions will connect with any human because we all feel. (I'm paraphrasing.) She also said that writing is cleansing. I totally agree with that. I was feeling so emotional in the workshop because I realized that I have a lot of pinned up emotions that I need to write about. There are a lot of songs in me that I need to release.
Anyway, after that, I had the chance to talk to producer, Brian Micheal Cox. He was so down to earth. He shared with me about how he keeps his head in the industry. He told me that he looks at the guys in Nashville who have won many grammies too, but still go home to their families. This is not their lives. Producers can come and go, so this can not be your life. This helped me remember that it's not about singing or being on stage. It is all temporary. It's about the life that I live off stage and when no one is looking. Anyway, I am excited. I want to work with both of them. I see that happening. Oh, I also heard an artist tonight by the name of Diva Mahal. She was great. I had the chance to talk to a guy from Rolling Out Magazine. He was funny. Hopefully he looks up my song that is being released next month(Don't Give Up Now) and my label(NuVyBe Records). That would be really cool. Any way, I'm going to sleep now. Just wanted to share this bit from my day. I hope that, if you are reading this post, that you see God's power over your life and that your heart continues to draw closer to Him. Love you!
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Friday, April 24, 2015
My Beginning
Before going to sleep tonight, I had to write about a conversation I had with my daddy. I woke up this morning thinking about him and how I want to cherish the times I have with him now and get to know him more. I was talking with him yesterday and he told me the story of my birth. Now, I've heard this story many times before, but yesterday, I heard it differently. He always tells me that it was thundering and lightning when I was born. (In my mind God set the greatest scene for my arrival. Dramatic!) I was born in a clinic in Elaine, Arkansas. I was breached at birth so my mom had a hard time giving birth to me. When I came out, I was like a ball. I could fit in my dad's hand. I weighed about 4 lbs. Daddy said that the doctor told him to take me and my mom home.
At this, I asked my dad why I was not taken to the hospital. Daddy said that the doctor told him to take me home, so he got his umbrella and covered me up to make sure it didn't rain on me and placed me in the car so that I would be protected. He then went back in to get my momma and covered her up so rain wouldn't get on her and then he took us home. This hit me hard. I didn't understand why, but, I was really moved by hearing that I was taken home. That I didn't go to the hospital, but was taken straight home to be nurtured by my parents. It also hit me to think about the concern and the care daddy must have shown at that time.
When I went to work this morning, this thought was still on my mind, so, I shared it with one of my coworkers. He said something that hit me and helped me to understand my story more. He said to me that it is rare to hear that someone was taken home from the hospital. Many children are left in a room with other children and cared for by strangers, but here I was taken home to be cared for by my parents. At that moment, I wanted to break down and cry because I understood and could see the deep concern and care that God had for me right at the beginning of my life.
He showed me the depth of his love by giving me to two concerned and caring parents who protected me from the beginning, from infancy. My coworker's point about how many people don't have what I was allowed to have helped me to see how I need to be grateful and accept the love that God has shown me and be willing to give this love to others. This is my beginning. This is how my earthly father showed love for me and how my heavenly Father showed his love for me. I am a blessed woman.
At this, I asked my dad why I was not taken to the hospital. Daddy said that the doctor told him to take me home, so he got his umbrella and covered me up to make sure it didn't rain on me and placed me in the car so that I would be protected. He then went back in to get my momma and covered her up so rain wouldn't get on her and then he took us home. This hit me hard. I didn't understand why, but, I was really moved by hearing that I was taken home. That I didn't go to the hospital, but was taken straight home to be nurtured by my parents. It also hit me to think about the concern and the care daddy must have shown at that time.
When I went to work this morning, this thought was still on my mind, so, I shared it with one of my coworkers. He said something that hit me and helped me to understand my story more. He said to me that it is rare to hear that someone was taken home from the hospital. Many children are left in a room with other children and cared for by strangers, but here I was taken home to be cared for by my parents. At that moment, I wanted to break down and cry because I understood and could see the deep concern and care that God had for me right at the beginning of my life.
He showed me the depth of his love by giving me to two concerned and caring parents who protected me from the beginning, from infancy. My coworker's point about how many people don't have what I was allowed to have helped me to see how I need to be grateful and accept the love that God has shown me and be willing to give this love to others. This is my beginning. This is how my earthly father showed love for me and how my heavenly Father showed his love for me. I am a blessed woman.
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Life's Changes
I have had an amazing year. I'm not just saying this, but I really believe that my life, my year has been great so far. It has not been easy and I have a long way to go, but it is good. One thing is concerning me though. Changes. I have a mix feeling about changes. Sometimes, I'm excited because I like different things and I like being surprised(for the most part). But, other times I get scared and hesitant because I don't know what's to come from the changes. I can't see what the outcome is going to be because of them. I guess that is why faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
I have been struggling with just being joyful in waiting for the changes in my life. I am scared. I'm not afraid to say this or express this to you because it is true. Why should I hide? My journey right now is on a road that I can't see or understand what the destination is going to be for certain. My life has no certainties. I am just where my Father wants me to be. If you are reading this blog, I want you to understand something about me. I love Jesus and I want to walk with him wherever He will lead me. Sometimes I resist because I want to do what I want to do, but in the end, I don't win and I end up humbling out and surrendering to him anyway. I'm trying to learn to do that upfront so that I don't have to go through the drama of fighting with myself or him making me humble out.
Anyway, as an artist, you have so many dreams and directions that you see your life going and you can imagine the great things ahead, but when it takes a long time, you start feeling anxious and worried and afraid about if these dreams are going to come true. This is the point where God is really testing your heart to see if you are going to believe that he is working for your good no matter what the circumstances may be.
The changes I am talking about are not just outward changes. I am talking about the changes that happen in your heart as this process is going on. I have experienced all kinds of emotions and some of them I can't even describe. (I think I need to sit down with somebody to try to figure them out!) Anyway, I'm at this point of trying to learn to not be angry when things are not happening in the speed I want them to be or learning how to love someone who I feel is difficult for me to love or learning how to grow up and face my responsibilities. I just had a birthday too. This is another change!
But, in all of the changes I am going through, one thing remains constant and consistent: Jesus' love for me has not wavered or changed. He has said he is my friend and he has promised that he will never leave me or forsake me. He has told me that he loves me beyond what I can imagine and he has showed me the depth of his love by dying for me. No one has ever done that for me. So, I guess, with all of the changes I am going through inwardly and outwardly, I need to hold on to what is always constant and never changing so that I can keep my sanity in the midst of it all!!
I have been struggling with just being joyful in waiting for the changes in my life. I am scared. I'm not afraid to say this or express this to you because it is true. Why should I hide? My journey right now is on a road that I can't see or understand what the destination is going to be for certain. My life has no certainties. I am just where my Father wants me to be. If you are reading this blog, I want you to understand something about me. I love Jesus and I want to walk with him wherever He will lead me. Sometimes I resist because I want to do what I want to do, but in the end, I don't win and I end up humbling out and surrendering to him anyway. I'm trying to learn to do that upfront so that I don't have to go through the drama of fighting with myself or him making me humble out.
Anyway, as an artist, you have so many dreams and directions that you see your life going and you can imagine the great things ahead, but when it takes a long time, you start feeling anxious and worried and afraid about if these dreams are going to come true. This is the point where God is really testing your heart to see if you are going to believe that he is working for your good no matter what the circumstances may be.
The changes I am talking about are not just outward changes. I am talking about the changes that happen in your heart as this process is going on. I have experienced all kinds of emotions and some of them I can't even describe. (I think I need to sit down with somebody to try to figure them out!) Anyway, I'm at this point of trying to learn to not be angry when things are not happening in the speed I want them to be or learning how to love someone who I feel is difficult for me to love or learning how to grow up and face my responsibilities. I just had a birthday too. This is another change!
But, in all of the changes I am going through, one thing remains constant and consistent: Jesus' love for me has not wavered or changed. He has said he is my friend and he has promised that he will never leave me or forsake me. He has told me that he loves me beyond what I can imagine and he has showed me the depth of his love by dying for me. No one has ever done that for me. So, I guess, with all of the changes I am going through inwardly and outwardly, I need to hold on to what is always constant and never changing so that I can keep my sanity in the midst of it all!!
Monday, March 2, 2015
It's been so long
I know, it's been a while since I've written a blog post and a lot has been happening. Right now, I'm home not feeling well, but I needed to take some time to write this post. Over the past couple of months I've had several projects happening and not feeling like I had the time to post about my life. My life is very full and some times it feels like it is overflowing to capacity. Where will I find the time to do it all? I've been praying about not adding to my plate something that is not suppose to be there. I just want to do it all.
Right now, if you haven't heard yet, we have launched my talk show on my YouTube Channel called "In the Living Room with Melika". I'm excited about this because it's going to be an avenue that I can use to talk about the topics that are close to my heart and interesting to others. I have so many ideas and my prayer is that the show impacts many lives. I've been getting some really great feedback about it. I'm thankful for all of the advice and encouragement I've been receiving. The next thing is to tape more shows. When? I have not idea but I do believe that the Lord will provide a way!! With what money? I will be reaching out to do a fund raiser for this project soon. (I will keep you posted.)
In addition to the show, I'm working on an album. We have been working on this album for a while now. I went to record in Delaware a couple of weeks ago and we have a song that is going to be released soon. I think it's going to be a hit. I'm speaking it. I can't wait to do the video for it. I'm excited about this song. I will let you know more about it and will keep you in the loop. This entertainment thing is all about faith and opportunity. I do believe that God is providing the opportunities for me. I'm just praying not to be so tired and overwhelmed that I miss them. I teach school and have so much to do there as I'm still pursuing a career in entertainment. I need a manager. I know that I'm going to need a lot of help. Please pray for me as the months go on, if you remember and send me anything that you want me to pray for you about. We all need prayer and guidance. I know that the Lord is my Shepard and that He is leading me and I'm praying to hold on to His hands and not let go as we continue on this journey. Love ya'll and I pray many blessings over your lives.
Right now, if you haven't heard yet, we have launched my talk show on my YouTube Channel called "In the Living Room with Melika". I'm excited about this because it's going to be an avenue that I can use to talk about the topics that are close to my heart and interesting to others. I have so many ideas and my prayer is that the show impacts many lives. I've been getting some really great feedback about it. I'm thankful for all of the advice and encouragement I've been receiving. The next thing is to tape more shows. When? I have not idea but I do believe that the Lord will provide a way!! With what money? I will be reaching out to do a fund raiser for this project soon. (I will keep you posted.)
In addition to the show, I'm working on an album. We have been working on this album for a while now. I went to record in Delaware a couple of weeks ago and we have a song that is going to be released soon. I think it's going to be a hit. I'm speaking it. I can't wait to do the video for it. I'm excited about this song. I will let you know more about it and will keep you in the loop. This entertainment thing is all about faith and opportunity. I do believe that God is providing the opportunities for me. I'm just praying not to be so tired and overwhelmed that I miss them. I teach school and have so much to do there as I'm still pursuing a career in entertainment. I need a manager. I know that I'm going to need a lot of help. Please pray for me as the months go on, if you remember and send me anything that you want me to pray for you about. We all need prayer and guidance. I know that the Lord is my Shepard and that He is leading me and I'm praying to hold on to His hands and not let go as we continue on this journey. Love ya'll and I pray many blessings over your lives.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired
As I'm sitting here resting from my thanksgiving break and overall overworked life, I'm trying to think of what to say. I haven't written a post over the past months because I've been sick and tired. Someone would ask me how I'm feeling. My response is tired and sometimes sick. I'm tired of being this way. So, I've come to a decision. I have to learn how to rest. My life is constantly busy and I know that I am not by myself in this. I have to learn how to find a balance. I want to be able to do all that I am created to do, but in order to do that, I have to have the energy to. So, here's what I'm planning on doing: I have to sleep, change my diet, exercise, and remain close to Jesus.
More than physically tired, I've been emotionally tired. I realized why a couple of weeks ago after talking to one of my friends. She said that when we are fighting against God or not being obedient to God, than we are tired even more. It's like this scripture:
Luke 14:31-32
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
My life is not my life anymore. When I said Jesus is Lord, I said that this life belongs to Him and I am trusting Him to lead me on the path He wants me to go. I have been tired because I've been wanting my way. When I am deciding to follow my emotions, I am wanting my own way. When I am deciding to be angry, to lust, to have malice in my heart, to hate or be impure, I am deciding to take my life back. Jesus owns me. I belong to him and when I decide to follow my ways and not his ways, I am an enemy going against him and I will get tired and beaten until I surrender to him. I have decided to surrender.
What I am learning is that sometimes we try to blame Satan for everything, but he only does what we allow him to do. When we are in Christ, he has no power over us other than the power we give to him. I have given my power away to him again and again when I decide to follow what I "feel", what I "think is right", or what is against Jesus words. When I follow my emotions, which I fall into a lot, I am giving more power to my flesh, feeding my sinful nature, more than feeding the Spirit of God. He lives in me and I am now deciding that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and that I will repent, which means fight against following myself, my feelings, my emotions, and be obedient to His words, what He wants me to do.
I hope this helps some of you who struggle with emotionalism and feel lost and want to change it. The only way out is through Jesus. We have to fix our eyes on Him. He is the author and perfecter of our faith and the only way to live a full life, a life filled with peace and joy is through Him.
Hebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
More than physically tired, I've been emotionally tired. I realized why a couple of weeks ago after talking to one of my friends. She said that when we are fighting against God or not being obedient to God, than we are tired even more. It's like this scripture:
Luke 14:31-32
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
My life is not my life anymore. When I said Jesus is Lord, I said that this life belongs to Him and I am trusting Him to lead me on the path He wants me to go. I have been tired because I've been wanting my way. When I am deciding to follow my emotions, I am wanting my own way. When I am deciding to be angry, to lust, to have malice in my heart, to hate or be impure, I am deciding to take my life back. Jesus owns me. I belong to him and when I decide to follow my ways and not his ways, I am an enemy going against him and I will get tired and beaten until I surrender to him. I have decided to surrender.
What I am learning is that sometimes we try to blame Satan for everything, but he only does what we allow him to do. When we are in Christ, he has no power over us other than the power we give to him. I have given my power away to him again and again when I decide to follow what I "feel", what I "think is right", or what is against Jesus words. When I follow my emotions, which I fall into a lot, I am giving more power to my flesh, feeding my sinful nature, more than feeding the Spirit of God. He lives in me and I am now deciding that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and that I will repent, which means fight against following myself, my feelings, my emotions, and be obedient to His words, what He wants me to do.
I hope this helps some of you who struggle with emotionalism and feel lost and want to change it. The only way out is through Jesus. We have to fix our eyes on Him. He is the author and perfecter of our faith and the only way to live a full life, a life filled with peace and joy is through Him.
Hebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
My Retreat
Hey, ya'll. I couldn't go to bed until I wrote this about my retreat. I had to get away from the city. I felt like I was going crazy. I was recovering from being sick, working all summer, and having an overall hard year. I NEEDED a break. So, God allowed me to find a place in the Poconos to go to that was exactly what I needed. Emotionally, I've been going through a lot. Dealing with a break up is not easy even when you know that it is for the best. Also, I'm waiting for God to open up the door for my next adventure and as I wait, my heart has gone through so many changes. I've been fighting against God's decisions for my life at the moment and making it hard for myself. I've been discontented with my life and just, overall, not loving my job. I've been heart broken by my relationship and the turn that we are in now. We are right where we need to be though.
On my retreat, I was able to cry and pour my heart out to God and to feel His love with me. He is helping me to see that I need to stop fighting against Him and accept where He places me in my life because He is doing everything for my good. When I do, I will be more happier and much more joyful. Also, I can't worry about my future because He is working that out too. I am just where I am suppose to be and will be ready when He says it's time to go forward. When I went to Bushkill Falls, I had the chance to do a hike. On the hike, I was able to see so many beautiful things. It was so peaceful. I was in the creek and had the chance to dig for rocks. (I'm going somewhere with this....)
After making it to the last waterfall, I stood there staring at the fall. I wanted to know what the summation would be for my retreat. God revealed it to me:
He is the creator of all things. Rocks speak and listen and can testify against us. The trees raise their hands to God and even clap. The waters speak. We are creations also. As one of the creations, I have been given different talents, different abilities. The waterfall, trees, and rocks have been given different talents and abilities. When I was looking at the waterfall, the word awesome just kept coming in my heart and my mind. God showed me that the same way that people are willing to travel from miles around to stare and the awesomeness of the waterfall is how He wants people to look at my life and be in awe. The waterfall is doing exactly what it is created to do. It was given the ability to do all of what it is doing. In the same matter, I have been given different abilities to do what I am created to do and when I do it, people will be in awe, but God will get the glory. When I looked at the waterfall, I was amazed, but I started thanking God for creating something so amazing and allowing me to see it. This is what our lives are suppose to do for God. Our lives are suppose to be awesome and amazing and reflect the glory of God. I am so grateful for this message and I pray that it is embedded in my soul and that it prayerfully helps some of you.
On my retreat, I was able to cry and pour my heart out to God and to feel His love with me. He is helping me to see that I need to stop fighting against Him and accept where He places me in my life because He is doing everything for my good. When I do, I will be more happier and much more joyful. Also, I can't worry about my future because He is working that out too. I am just where I am suppose to be and will be ready when He says it's time to go forward. When I went to Bushkill Falls, I had the chance to do a hike. On the hike, I was able to see so many beautiful things. It was so peaceful. I was in the creek and had the chance to dig for rocks. (I'm going somewhere with this....)
After making it to the last waterfall, I stood there staring at the fall. I wanted to know what the summation would be for my retreat. God revealed it to me:
He is the creator of all things. Rocks speak and listen and can testify against us. The trees raise their hands to God and even clap. The waters speak. We are creations also. As one of the creations, I have been given different talents, different abilities. The waterfall, trees, and rocks have been given different talents and abilities. When I was looking at the waterfall, the word awesome just kept coming in my heart and my mind. God showed me that the same way that people are willing to travel from miles around to stare and the awesomeness of the waterfall is how He wants people to look at my life and be in awe. The waterfall is doing exactly what it is created to do. It was given the ability to do all of what it is doing. In the same matter, I have been given different abilities to do what I am created to do and when I do it, people will be in awe, but God will get the glory. When I looked at the waterfall, I was amazed, but I started thanking God for creating something so amazing and allowing me to see it. This is what our lives are suppose to do for God. Our lives are suppose to be awesome and amazing and reflect the glory of God. I am so grateful for this message and I pray that it is embedded in my soul and that it prayerfully helps some of you.
Friday, July 18, 2014
What else can I say?
I know that it has been a while since I posted anything. I don't know what to say. I've had an overwhelming couple of months. I have to honest. I started this blog because I wanted to share the great things that God has been doing in my life, but it has been hard to write anything or to want to share when the times have not been so great. Honestly, it has been down right hard. I have been tested and tried and my faith has been refined. I have been going through the fire. I am still going through the fire, but, the point is that I am going through it and not remaining in it. My faith has been attacked on all levels that I could not have imagined and didn't want to. This has been my living hell. I may sound extreme but this is how I have felt. This is one reason:
I have been dreaming of being a professional entertainer since I was 6 years old. I moved to New York 16 years ago in order to pursue this dream. After moving here, it has been an uphill journey. I've gone through my deserts and valleys and have had some mountain top moments, but it has been a complete journey. I think of my life like when the Israelites were freed from Egypt and had to go through the Red Sea(faith), through the desert being fed manna and quail(faith), and then to have the chance to go to Canaan but had to wonder in the desert for 40 years(lack of faith). They doubted the promise of God. They didn't believe Him when He told them to go and take the land that He was giving it to them. They looked at the task of defeating the giants and how powerful they were and were afraid and refused to listen to faith, to the 2 men who tried to stand for God. They decided to follow the 10 men who were afraid and who overpowered the 2.
My life can be like this. My fears I've had in my mind, in my heart, the doubts about my future and my life and my career, the anxiety that I have about the direction I see my life going can over power me and I can "listen to the 10 and ignore the 2". The word of God is the "2". My own mind and heart can sound louder to me than His words. But God has proven to me who He is and that He is faithful and is leading me into Canaan.
I believe God. I want to receive the blessings He has in store for me. I know that I'm going to have to fight pass my negative thoughts, anxieties, and other emotions that come up, but the battle is not mine, it is the Lord's. My life belongs to Him and I am being led into the life, the plans that He has for me that will bring glory to Him. I am grateful that He chose me to bring glory to him. When I struggle and others see my struggle, but see how Jesus helps me overcome it, that brings glory to God. When I persevere through my sufferings and don't allow my heart to get embittered or complacent, that brings glory to my Father. When I hold on to His truths and live this life for His glory and not compromise, that brings glory to Him. When I am submissive to His will in my life, even when His will is for me to suffer, that brings glory to Him. Everything is so my Father will be glorified and that the world will know that He is God. I am learning a lot. It has not been easy and I am still in the fire, but I will not be burned. I am still feeling the waters coming against me, but they will not overcome me. I have felt like the mountains are being overpowered and the earth is shaking underneath my feet, but I have not been moved. Jesus is with me and is true to His words: "I am with you till the very end of the ages."
Is. 43:1-3 But now, this is what the Lord says- he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, Your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior."
I have been dreaming of being a professional entertainer since I was 6 years old. I moved to New York 16 years ago in order to pursue this dream. After moving here, it has been an uphill journey. I've gone through my deserts and valleys and have had some mountain top moments, but it has been a complete journey. I think of my life like when the Israelites were freed from Egypt and had to go through the Red Sea(faith), through the desert being fed manna and quail(faith), and then to have the chance to go to Canaan but had to wonder in the desert for 40 years(lack of faith). They doubted the promise of God. They didn't believe Him when He told them to go and take the land that He was giving it to them. They looked at the task of defeating the giants and how powerful they were and were afraid and refused to listen to faith, to the 2 men who tried to stand for God. They decided to follow the 10 men who were afraid and who overpowered the 2.
My life can be like this. My fears I've had in my mind, in my heart, the doubts about my future and my life and my career, the anxiety that I have about the direction I see my life going can over power me and I can "listen to the 10 and ignore the 2". The word of God is the "2". My own mind and heart can sound louder to me than His words. But God has proven to me who He is and that He is faithful and is leading me into Canaan.
I believe God. I want to receive the blessings He has in store for me. I know that I'm going to have to fight pass my negative thoughts, anxieties, and other emotions that come up, but the battle is not mine, it is the Lord's. My life belongs to Him and I am being led into the life, the plans that He has for me that will bring glory to Him. I am grateful that He chose me to bring glory to him. When I struggle and others see my struggle, but see how Jesus helps me overcome it, that brings glory to God. When I persevere through my sufferings and don't allow my heart to get embittered or complacent, that brings glory to my Father. When I hold on to His truths and live this life for His glory and not compromise, that brings glory to Him. When I am submissive to His will in my life, even when His will is for me to suffer, that brings glory to Him. Everything is so my Father will be glorified and that the world will know that He is God. I am learning a lot. It has not been easy and I am still in the fire, but I will not be burned. I am still feeling the waters coming against me, but they will not overcome me. I have felt like the mountains are being overpowered and the earth is shaking underneath my feet, but I have not been moved. Jesus is with me and is true to His words: "I am with you till the very end of the ages."
Is. 43:1-3 But now, this is what the Lord says- he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, Your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior."
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