Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

As I'm sitting here resting from my thanksgiving break and overall overworked life, I'm trying to think of what to say.  I haven't written a post over the past months because I've been sick and tired.  Someone would ask me how I'm feeling.  My response is tired and sometimes sick.  I'm tired of being this way.  So, I've come to a decision.  I have to learn how to rest.  My life is constantly busy and I know that I am not by myself in this.  I have to learn how to find a balance.  I want to be able to do all that I am created to do, but in order to do that, I have to have the energy to.  So, here's what I'm planning on doing:  I have to sleep, change my diet, exercise, and remain close to Jesus.  

More than physically tired, I've been emotionally tired.  I realized why a couple of weeks ago after talking to one of my friends.  She said that when we are fighting against God or not being obedient to God, than we are tired even more.  It's like this scripture:

Luke 14:31-32
31 “Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Won’t he first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? 32 If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. 33 In the same way, those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples.
My life is not my life anymore.  When I said Jesus is Lord, I said that this life belongs to Him and I am trusting Him to lead me on the path He wants me to go.  I have been tired because I've been wanting my way.  When I am deciding to follow my emotions, I am wanting my own way.  When I am deciding to be angry, to lust, to have malice in my heart, to hate or be impure, I am deciding to take my life back.  Jesus owns me.  I belong to him and when I decide to follow my ways and not his ways, I am an enemy going against him and I will get tired and beaten until I surrender to him.  I have decided to surrender.  

What I am learning is that sometimes we try to blame Satan for everything, but he only does what we allow him to do.  When we are in Christ, he has no power over us other than the power we give to him.  I have given my power away to him again and again when I decide to follow what I "feel", what I "think is right", or what is against Jesus words.  When I follow my emotions, which I fall into a lot, I am giving more power to my flesh, feeding my sinful nature, more than feeding the Spirit of God.  He lives in me and I am now deciding that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired and that I will repent, which means fight against following myself, my feelings, my emotions, and be obedient to His words, what He wants me to do. 
I hope this helps some of you who struggle with emotionalism and feel lost and want to change it.  The only way out is through Jesus.  We have to fix our eyes on Him.  He is the author and perfecter of our faith and the only way to live a full life, a life filled with peace and joy is through Him.  
Hebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.