Changes

I've been thinking a lot about changes.  I feel like a lot of changes are ahead of me on the road that I am on and sometimes I get so scared.  It is scary when you don't see what is ahead and you don't know the direction your life is going.  (As I'm writing this, my heart is beginning to pound a little faster.)  I have to be honest with you, there have been times that I wanted to turn back around and do what is comfortable and easy, but then I would miss out on the adventure. I'm scared, but I'm excited at the same time.  I was on the phone with one of my sisters one night and she put it this way:  You know the feeling you get before you get on a roller coaster for the first time?  You know its going to be scary and your stomach starts going crazy and your heart starts pounding really fast, but then, you get on. It takes off and you begin to scream at the top of your lungs, but, when it is all done and the roller coaster has come to a stop.  What do you think?  Let's do that again!
This is the description of where I feel my life is now.  Let me tell you why.
My singing career is about to take off.  I don't know what is about to happen, how it's going to happen, or even when, but I just know that it is. My label (Nuvyberecords.com) is at work with it's artists and has a plan of how they will be launching us.  I don't know when all of this is going to happen, but I know it is going to be great.
My job situation.  The job that I thought I had(but didn't want to have) didn't happen.  I prayed for it not to because I didn't want it.  I have other jobs lined up, but, this is another situation in which I don't know what is going to happen.
My relationship with me boyfriend, Joe.  We are in love and it has been an amazing time with him.  He is truly showing me how God created a man and woman relationship to be like.  We are truly helping each other become more like Christ!  It has not been an easy couple of months because my character has been exposed, but this is good.  It is helping me to mature and become more of a woman of God. I am really learning what love really is. It's not about the feelings that we have when we see each other.  It's about considering the other above ourselves. This change is going to be a continuous journey for me because I have been single for almost 15 years and dealing with what I want, when I want it, and with me and God and now having a man in this has been a ride in a half.  I am grateful because it has been pulling me out of my comfort zone and making me grow up.  We are going to be going to my family reunion at the end of the month.  Keep us in prayers because we are driving down there. Now, we are not going by ourselves.  A friend of mine is coming with me so that we can remain above reproach.  (I am grateful for the Kingdom of God!!)
We have started to talk about the direction we want to go in our relationship.  I AM SCARED!  You know how you always dreamed of something, but when it is happening you are like, hold on, wait a minute, I don't think I am ready yet!  All of that is going on inside of me.  But, as you know, I always have scriptures to turn to that has been helping me as I'm going through all of this: Is 41:13-14 For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.  Do not be afraid, O worm Jacob, O little Israel, for I myself will help you,:  declares the Lord your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
Is 40:11 He tends his flock like a shepherd; He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.
Jesus is holding me by my right hand and is leading me down roads that I have never chartered and is telling me to trust Him because He is my good Shepard and he holds me close to his heart. He does not want me to be afraid of the changes to come or the twist and turns that will come on my path because He has promised me that He is always with me and will never leave me.  
I pray to trust you Lord with all of my heart and not to lean on my own understanding and in all of my ways acknowledge you so that you will make my path straight.  In Jesus name I pray, Amen.