Something Crazy

Ok.  I know I haven't posted in a while, but I think now is a good time to write something.  First thing first, I've been going through emotional changes(like always) over the past months and fighting doubt about my life, where I am going, and how I am going to get there and it has been an anxious time because I've been worried about many things.  Music career not growing as fast as I would like it.  Relationship changes, learning how to trust and allow someone in and to not reflect my old pain on my new relationship.  Learning how to communicate about what I am feeling and not just explode and go crazy.  Worried about work and how I can make more income and not be anxious about how I'm going to pay my bills.  Leading a bible talk and worried about how to even do that.  Worry, anxiety, and just overwhelmed is where my mind has been over the past months, but, and there is a but, it has not remained there.  Jesus is AMAZING!  I am so excited about where He is taking my life.

I had decided to give up on my music career(again) because I haven't seen the progress or direction of what's going on.  I prayed to God about it and He answered my prayer the next day or so.    The indie label that I am with contacted me to let me know that they are releasing a mixtape with my remix of my song on it and we will start rerecording the single hopefully in September.  This gave me confirmation that He is opening doors for that to be successful.

In addition to growing my music, my relationship is growing.  I am so in love with him and he treats me so much like a queen.  God has given me an amazing man to learn how to love and give my heart.  I am so excited about where this relationship is going.  He is so old school.  Love it!  He opens doors for me.  He gets out of the car all of the time to open the door for me.  He shares scriptures with me and inspires me in my walk with God.  He deeply shows me how much he loves me and all of this we are doing purely.  No kissing at all.  We just hold hands.  Now, this has not been easy, but, we just really want to please God with our relationship.  God has been blessing both of our live because of our decision to stay pure.

Now, if you don't know, I've been substitute teaching for several years because I've been trying to focus on being an artist, but, I am at a point in my life where I need steady income and if I can try to do both (again) that would be great.  So, I prayed about this and asked God to not let me go another summer worried about income and to give me work.  I was busy sending off resumes and looking for temp jobs when, out of the blue, a school called me to teach summer school.  Now, I had put my name down to teach summer school, but as a substitute never thinking they would call me for consistent work.  God is AMAZING! I have been working from July to August.  The kids are a handful, but I have income and not worried about money.  Also, I prayed about a full time job and sent my resume off to several schools and one day this school called me and asked me to come for an interview.  They called me back for the second interview and now I found out this week that they want me to work with them.  Again, God is Amazing!    I am praying to have fun in this and to enjoy this journey and not see it as hard or get anxious around every corner because, my Father is seriously showing me that He is taking care of every angle of my life.  This scripture is something I want you to remember: Ps 73:23-24 Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.  You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.
Love ya'll