AMAZINIG!!

I am so amazed by what God is doing with my life.  Ok, let me be real. I am so scared by what God is doing with my life.  Why am I scared?  Because He is blowing my mind and I'm not in control and He is showing me that whatever He wants will happen regardless of my situation. Check this out:  During labor day weekend, me, my boyfriend, and a girlfriend of mine drove down to Georgia and to Arkansas.  This trip was an adventure!  I am so convicted by Joe's desire to want to do what is right before God.  Do you know that he would rather sleep in a car than sleep under the same roof with me because of his desire to please God?! I was amazed by that! (My family was too, to say the least.   They think he's crazy, but people thought Jesus was too, so, we are cool with that.)  Anyway, we had the chance to meet each other's family.  It was so amazing how we connected.  My brothers were able to tell him stories about me that, I must say, are true and he is still not running away screaming.  One cool thing happened while there, my mom and I were able to sing together.  I broke down crying like a baby because I was so moved and my mom walked up and took the mic and continued with the song.  Again, I was BLOWN away!  Next, on the way coming back from Arkansas, I got a phone call from the job that had called me up and said that they couldn't hire me because I was not a certified teacher.  I was fine with that, because, even during the first interview, I told them I wasn't certified, but they asked me to come back.  I even called after the orientation process to let them know, again, that I wasn't certified and the lady just overlooked what I said.  So, to get this call was a shock.  I told them to call me back that day but they didn't.  Because they didn't call me back, I dismissed it again as if they have found someone else.  Then I prayed that if it is God's will for me to work there, let them call me back the next day.  Guess what!  The next morning my phone rang and it was the school calling me to see if I wanted to take the job!  I was FLOORED!  God is truly showing me His hand.  I am noticing that even though I don't have my certification, if it is what God wants for me than it will be done.   Also, I spoke to the people with the label that I'm signed with.  It is cool to have people on your side who believe in you and are willing to work with you.  This is something I've been wanting for a long time. Again, I am amazed by God. So because God is showing me all of these great things, why do I still worry and struggle with anxiety?  I get angry with myself because of this.  He is showing me how much he is for me and He has given up everything for me, so, what am I afraid of?  I am still checking my heart on this and learning that I must trust in Him. He is showing me that my dreams are to great for me.  My life is not my own and is to be used for Him and His glory and He will direct it in the way that is best.  He loves me, so, I need to remember and hold on to the fact that all things are working out for my good.  I pray that we grow more in the peace that transcends all understanding.
Rom 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.