Overcomer

If you don't know, I've been pursuing a singing career for a while now.  I moved to New York to sing, but it has been an intense journey.  It's taken time for me to look at my life as a journey and learn how to enjoy it.  While on this path, I've taught school for several years, was a book keeper for several years, and temp for some time, but never stopped focusing on the vision that has always been in my heart:  a music career.  The past 4 years have been some of my toughest.  I've been behind on my bills, almost homeless, had to get food stamps, and had to apply for unemployment over the summer.  But, in all of this, I still have hope.  Life tried to beat it out of me.  No, Satan tried to beat hope(faith) out of me.  I think that my enemy was trying to beat that out of me because he knows the impact my life is going to have on the lives of many people.  Yes, I'm speaking this into existence.

I've learned that I have to start speaking the truth, God's truth, over my life and stop being afraid of what people will think about me.  "Oh, she's prideful or full of herself."  No.  It's good to think that you are special and to know that you are created for a purpose.  It's good to understand that you are beautifully and wonderfully made and that you are loved deeper than what you can ever imagine.  I have struggled with low self esteem for to long now and trying to get gratification from people or my talents and I've come to realize that these things are temporary.  I have to get it from the one who created me.  I can't be shy of being a light or afraid anymore because of over shining other people.  When my life is blessed or when I'm doing great things, it encourages others and brings glory to my Father.  I am tired of being one of those Christians who stand on the side lines and scared to step out because of the mean old world and truly missing out on the purpose I was created for.  No!  My Father is bigger than all of this and my big brother, Jesus, has authority over all of this so why are we so afraid. It's time for us, true disciples of Christ, to rise up and live our lives boldly and unapologetic because there are so many people who need to see God through us, who are looking and searching for hope.  I pray that my life and the trials that I have overcome encourages you and gives you hope.